Friday, January 15, 2010

The Only Moment We Were Alone

The only moment we were alone
Was never
This pain seaps in deep
Makes me weap.

This crushing sorrow
Is painful
The world is covered in a black darkness
That is just to meak for me
I need your hand
To lead me through the sadness
The sight you can give me
Is a light that i only can see
The true love i feel for you
Is something that i cant describe
Its something that has to be felt

But what the fuck is wrong with me
To mistake these feelings of love with limerency
Im so sick of that word
Its like a punch in the gut
Which by now is internally bleeding
Because im torturing my self
By looking at pictures of thee

Im so sick of this feeling
I need you to be with me
When i saw your face last saturday
When i saw the way you looked through me
When i saw you shed a tear and how much
I wish it was me who could clear it for you
Instead of your girlfriend and her child sitting next to you
I wish i could make you able to see
I dont know how happy you are and
I dont know how happy i can make you
But i know how happy you can make me.

Rythem

The hidden rhythm of your heart beat
Underneath my trembling hand
The radiant heat
The band
In the background
While your fast asleep

A smile cracks my cheeks
I feel your hand sliding sleak
Down my thigh you hand flies
It stops
And in that moment
I feel your lips
As they tremble against mine
For ever in that moment of time
I will never forget that moment
I will never forget you

And so help me god
That when i wake up
I will never think this is a dream
Because in my personal reality,
You are the only one for me.

But my reality is
Its only limerency
For what this means, Incase you dont know
Is that this feeling of inadequacy
This feeling of emptiness
This feeling of love i hold for you
Its just not real,
And while i wish my life wasnt this bleak
The truth is it is,
And how i hold on everyday for a chance to change this fact
For a chance to see you

Take that as you may
But for as long as i live
I will
I wont
I cant ever forget you
For you are everything to me
And if and when this coma passes over
My first breath will be
Where is the one for whom i seek.