tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37296015858749408812024-03-13T05:15:42.373-07:00Rusty Radio's PoetryShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.comBlogger20125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-7520219443131443132010-01-15T19:04:00.000-08:002010-01-15T19:05:27.302-08:00The Only Moment We Were Alone<div style="text-align: center;">The only moment we were alone<br />Was never<br />This pain seaps in deep<br />Makes me weap.<br /><br />This crushing sorrow<br />Is painful<br />The world is covered in a black darkness<br />That is just to meak for me<br />I need your hand<br />To lead me through the sadness<br />The sight you can give me<br />Is a light that i only can see<br />The true love i feel for you<br />Is something that i cant describe<br />Its something that has to be felt<br /><br />But what the fuck is wrong with me<br />To mistake these feelings of love with limerency<br />Im so sick of that word<br />Its like a punch in the gut<br />Which by now is internally bleeding<br />Because im torturing my self<br />By looking at pictures of thee<br /><br />Im so sick of this feeling<br />I need you to be with me<br />When i saw your face last saturday<br />When i saw the way you looked through me<br />When i saw you shed a tear and how much<br />I wish it was me who could clear it for you<br />Instead of your girlfriend and her child sitting next to you<br />I wish i could make you able to see<br />I dont know how happy you are and<br />I dont know how happy i can make you<br />But i know how happy you can make me.</div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-76640125858711542432010-01-15T19:02:00.000-08:002010-01-15T19:04:39.231-08:00Rythem<div style="text-align: center;">The hidden rhythm of your heart beat<br />Underneath my trembling hand<br />The radiant heat<br />The band<br />In the background<br />While your fast asleep<br /><br />A smile cracks my cheeks<br />I feel your hand sliding sleak<br />Down my thigh you hand flies<br />It stops<br />And in that moment<br />I feel your lips<br />As they tremble against mine<br />For ever in that moment of time<br />I will never forget that moment<br />I will never forget you<br /><br />And so help me god<br />That when i wake up<br />I will never think this is a dream<br />Because in my personal reality,<br />You are the only one for me.<br /><br />But my reality is<br />Its only limerency<br />For what this means, Incase you dont know<br />Is that this feeling of inadequacy<br />This feeling of emptiness<br />This feeling of love i hold for you<br />Its just not real,<br />And while i wish my life wasnt this bleak<br />The truth is it is,<br />And how i hold on everyday for a chance to change this fact<br />For a chance to see you<br /><br />Take that as you may<br />But for as long as i live<br />I will<br />I wont<br />I cant ever forget you<br />For you are everything to me<br />And if and when this coma passes over<br />My first breath will be<br />Where is the one for whom i seek.<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-35192877313198403482009-01-18T13:24:00.000-08:002009-01-18T13:25:15.574-08:00Several Words<div style="text-align: center;">Several Words<br />--------------------<br />Several words we never knew,<br />Now have begun to make things real,<br />When our soul is gone, we have truly lost what it takes to feel,<br />To feel more, To feel life,<br />To be saved, because this cant go on,<br />Without meaning or cause,<br />I need you to save me, because i cant go on,<br />Without you, by my side not needing a clause.<br /><br />We all need someone,<br />Demanding us,<br />Pushing us,<br />To be better then we are,<br />Someone who can give meaning to our self realiant lives,<br />Someone who knows the words,<br />To give you the time to need, to say what you believe,<br />To say what counts,<br />To make you swing in their lust.<br /><br />If you where here,<br />Id love you,<br />More then life itself,<br />Here,<br />I could be with you forever,<br />Never decieving you,<br />Always treating you,<br />Nicely.<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-59470347140392133852009-01-16T16:49:00.000-08:002009-01-16T16:51:19.938-08:00Tears Down My Cheeks<div style="text-align: center;">Tears Down my Cheeks<br />-------------------------------<br />When i see your smile,<br />Tears roll down my cheeks,<br />Because every time you smile for awhile,<br />A piece of my breaks of, leaks<br />Into my shallow pool of misery,<br />Because your something to me,<br />A desired goal,<br />Never going to be able to reach,<br />And i dont know why, But im sick of feeling this way,<br />Im sick of thinking of us with an array<br />Of light blinding us, Distracting us, Holding<br />Onto us, forever as I imagine,<br />Us growing old together, aging<br />Slightly, Hasten,<br />A slight work of fiction,<br />Is me being with you,<br />And as much as i want to give up,<br />Im unable to, because i am once and forever,<br />In love with you.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /><br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-10359864465353098322009-01-15T19:27:00.000-08:002009-01-16T16:51:07.101-08:00Lost my Breath<div style="text-align: center;">Lost my Breath<br />---------------<br />I keep waiting for my breath,<br />To come back,<br />But it never does,<br />So come finish me off,<br />Break my heart with.<br /><br />Noone should be seperated from the one they love,<br />Cause it shatters spirits,<br />Shatters hopes,<br />Causes one's self worth,<br />To be abolished,<br />Demolished,<br />Lost without hope to change,<br />To be what it once was,<br />That first time he or she looked into your eyes,<br />When their heart skipped that beat,<br />The way their hands shook your's good bye,<br />Because in that first instance of heat<br />Between the two of us,<br />Between the two of anyone,<br />Forever,<br />Gone.<br /><br />So run after the one who stole your breath,<br />Maybe they'll be their to catch you,<br />Cause maybe they never forgot you,<br />Cause maybe, just maybe,<br />You meant something to them,<br />Barely,<br />A small gem,<br />That sparkled to that one person,<br />Whos first eye contact,<br />Sparkled, a recipricol action,<br />Whos smile cracked,<br />Your fragile heart,<br />And you know deep down,<br />Only that one person can make it right.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-66178177424721884712009-01-06T14:33:00.000-08:002009-01-06T14:34:17.987-08:00In the Air<div style="text-align: center;">In the Air<br />-------------<br />Im breaking down,<br />Im crying,<br />I miss you in my life,<br />Come on,<br />Give me something,<br />Notice me,<br />I dont know what i can do anymore,<br />And now im alone and looking out,<br />And im waiting on the end,<br />For you,<br />How extreme will i need to be,<br />To get you to notice me,<br />From the summer air,<br />To the winter chill,<br />I can barely bare<br />This tough hill,<br />This giant obstical,<br />In the way from me getting you,<br />I will change, for you,<br />For myself, because when i get you, my life will be complete,<br />A giant relief<br />I sigh, as i look into the sky,<br />Breathing in your air,<br />Turning rosy red in ectasy and nervousness,<br />A slight bonus,<br />Would be for you to be rosy too,<br />A new untrue venture,<br />For me to be with you.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-2208794338055073262009-01-05T03:32:00.000-08:002009-01-05T03:33:15.806-08:00Time Stops<div style="text-align: center;">Time Stops<br />------------<br />Time stops,<br />When i look into your eyes,<br />I can see your dorky side,<br />Quarky side,<br />Your compassionate,<br />Your charasmatic,<br />Your everything i look for,<br />Your everything i want,<br />Your perfect,<br />And when i look into your eyes,<br />I start to cry,<br />Because i can never have you,<br />A desired quotient,<br />Lifted high away from me,<br />All i can do is wait for you,<br />Wait for the moment when time stops,<br />Wait for the moment when Im important in your life,<br />And ill cover all bets,<br />That the moment this threats,<br />I wont be what you are to me,<br />Ill just be an obstical,<br />In your way, as you try to get by,<br />And if i know you cant get through,<br />Ill move, for you, As a way to impress you,<br />My wonderful dork,<br />With your annoying quarks,<br />But i will still love you,<br />Maybe one day when Time stops,<br />Youll love me to,<br />Because i can barely go on without you.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-11727379778085197562008-12-31T21:17:00.001-08:002009-01-01T18:45:06.798-08:00New YearHAPPY NEW YEARS<br /><div style="text-align: center;">New Year<br />-------------<br />With the new year passing, its time for us to say goodbye,<br />We celebrated the year together, mostly,<br />With the consistant beating of myself,<br />To get you to notice me, finally,<br />But with this new year,<br />Im setting a goals,<br />Tto find you,<br />To show myself to you once more,<br />Maybe this time, it will be forever<br />Me and you, can share our love and travel afar,<br />Tour the world, or local bar,<br />We can head to places, unknown,<br />Or right back home,<br />As long as im with you,<br />So this is my resolution,<br />My own personal constitution,<br />Of laws i set on myself,<br />Forever, till the new year comes again,<br />Hopefully when i wake up in bed,<br />I wont be depressed,<br />More ill likely express,<br />My everlasting devotion to you,<br />Soon.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-61955985492919475362008-12-31T13:26:00.000-08:002008-12-31T17:01:36.779-08:00Staring<div style="text-align: center;">Staring<br />--------<br />Staring out of the stands,<br />Watching the bands,<br />Climbing out of the sky,<br />Comes my perfect angel, set high<br />Apart from others in my mind, people left behind,<br />In my mind, its only you and me, free.<br /><br />Ive had these dreams,<br />Of you and I together,<br />Forever,<br />But a blast from reality,<br />You dont care,<br />Im another lemming in the stands,<br />While your over there,<br />Marching, Moving to a gentle beat,<br />I see you walking,<br />Thinking,<br />But it doesnt get my anywhere.<br /><br />All I want to do is touch your hair,<br />Stare into your brown eyes,<br />And get lost, say my good byes<br />To the outside world, no,<br />This is to you, you got into my head,<br />You keep me up in bed,<br />Yearning, played out,<br />I miss you.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-363652458167045332008-12-31T13:24:00.000-08:002008-12-31T13:26:06.206-08:00Save Me<div style="text-align: center;">Save Me<br />-----------<br />Take a breath,<br />Close your eyes,<br />Count to 5,<br />Take in the memories,<br />As they fly,<br />A blast from the night,<br />The days roll by,<br />Im just not the same as I was a year ago,<br />And each and every day from below<br />my mind, my heart isnt different,<br />Im still in love,<br />You want to be out there,<br />I just want you to say your beautiful,<br />I need you,<br />To save me.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-19442014956181864352008-12-28T15:14:00.000-08:002008-12-28T15:17:22.321-08:00Here i SitThis is one of my earliest poems ive written about a certain person, so here we go.<br /><div style="text-align: center;">Here I Sit<br />-------------<br />Here I sit, breathing,<br />Waiting for you to see me,<br />Standing here, Watching,<br />Wondering, Why?<br /><br />Why are you able to do these things,<br />So inconspicuous,<br />So insignificant,<br />Yet its this power you have over me,<br />The ability to make me want you,<br />The ability to make me thing,<br />You are the only one for me.<br /><br />So as I Sit here wanting,<br />Your over there breathing,<br />Not even knowing,<br />Without even trying,<br />To destroy me.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-43302916652401465992008-12-28T08:25:00.000-08:002008-12-28T08:28:33.820-08:00PromiseI know i havent posted in 4 days but i havent had a chance to write, so to make up for it, ill post 4 today.<br /><br />I wrote this for my english class when we were talking about Emily Dickinson so here it is,<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">Promise<br />------------<br />You told me you' never leave,<br />The fact that you lied,<br />Hurt me, left me within a weave,<br />Of tangled lies, left behind,<br />For one to forever see.<br /><br />I sit now in front of your grave,<br />I whimper as i start to breath,<br />Reminded of how,<br />You promised me,<br />How you would never leave me unable to see.<br /><br />"You promised me!",<br />I cry as i look into the air,<br />Wishing i could see your golden hair,<br />Your shining face once more,<br />As i remembered it, before you left me,<br />Please?<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-12023477647586321422008-12-24T16:54:00.000-08:002008-12-24T17:40:27.136-08:00I cant move alongHmm, so this poem is a really bad one, the theme changes to drastically over the poem but i promised myself id write 2 poems everyday for the month of december, so here it is.<br /><div style="text-align: center;">I cant move along<br />--------------------<br />I wish for you to,<br />Hold me close,<br />Hold me tight,<br />A salute of altos,<br />Lead to the daylight,<br />The backbite,<br />The foresight to our future together,<br />Within the bitter bite of the cold winter night,<br />To the sun drenched summer delight,<br />Of being in your arms,<br />Your beautiful charms<br />Hidden in your smile creeks,<br />The past of a lonely maverick,<br />The distant car horns,<br />Telling us to move along,<br />To get you out of my life,<br />A neverending strife<br />Ive been trying to acheive,<br />But i cant move along,<br />I cant say a " So long "<br />So go while you waste your day thinking,<br />While im just sinking,<br />Into a shallow pool of self misery,<br />Trying to keep myself busy,<br />Writing this poetry,<br />Barely,<br />Forcing myself,<br />Pushing myself,<br />To move along.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-15173560738839480982008-12-24T07:47:00.000-08:002008-12-24T07:48:47.451-08:00Lose ControlNo introduction, just the poem this time :)<br /><div style="text-align: center;">Lose Control<br />-------------<br />Almost Merry Christmas,<br />Marry Christmas Eve,<br />Will you be my Santa please?<br /><br />Im just sick of the valentines,<br />The passers by,<br />With their hand in hands,<br />Its just the same over and over again,<br />I just need to be like strongmen,<br />And look past them,<br />To the time where i can be with you,<br />Because you make my heart swoon.<br /><br />But as we stand here now,<br />I am reminded of all the reasons why,<br />Why i love you,<br />Why i want to be with you,<br />The way your eyes can look into mine,<br />And cross into the border line,<br />Of my soul, and make me loose control.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-22973234075488600552008-12-23T20:36:00.000-08:002008-12-23T20:42:47.663-08:00As To Why?<div style="text-align: left;">So i just got a resurgence of emotions from watching a video of someone dear to me and wrote another poem :<br /><div style="text-align: center;">As To Why?<br />---------------<br />Why cant i explain this,<br />Its at the tip of my tongue,<br />As to why?<br />Why your so captivating,<br />Exhilarating,<br />Hilarious,<br />Never afraid to make a fool of yourself,<br />Just to be with you by myself,<br />You know how to have a good time,<br />And not afraid of the why,<br />The why you do these things,<br />But i dont care, All those lemmings,<br />They just walk on with their dreary lives,<br />But im cast aside,<br />To notice you, To be akin to you,<br />But I love to ensue<br />Your acts, to follow along and misconstrue<br />Your actions, As if a cue<br />For you to pretend to care,<br />As long as im not there afterwards,<br />But we both know were just a bunch of nerds,<br />So as a final word of passing,<br />A sortve docking of my faulting,<br />Because even though its over,<br />I cant find my center.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-33551020094783291052008-12-23T02:52:00.001-08:002008-12-23T02:52:47.295-08:00FriendThis is a poem for a friend of mine as a present to her.<br /><div style="text-align: center;">Friend<br />--------<br />You were there from square one,<br />A great pal, one I could never shun,<br />Because of our deep connection,<br />You got me,<br />You never said I was an idiot,<br />A giant biggot,<br />A lonely nobody,<br />A loving beastly,<br />You only told me,<br />That i was a caring person,<br />Someone you can talk to,<br />With full honestly,<br />For you knew briefly,<br />That i was trustworthy,<br />And over time, this became true,<br />As we shared secrets, Now askwed into the sands of time,<br />Walk back in time and remember, of what we told each other,<br />In all confidance, that if lost,<br />My life would be a little bit colder,<br />Lonlier,<br />Emptier,<br />Scarier.<br /><br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-962695548621206852008-12-22T18:29:00.000-08:002008-12-22T18:31:03.560-08:00SleepAgain, why dont i like my own poetry anymore? I guess it seems maybe forced, like theres not enough emotion backing it, or maybe not the right kind anymore. Maybe this poetic therapy does work??<br /><div style="text-align: center;">Sleep<br />--------<br />The moon is down,<br />The sun is rising,<br />I guess i should to,<br />But when i do, i never see you.<br /><br />I wish i could,<br />I wish i could wake up to your face every morning,<br />Just so i can watch you sleep,<br />listen to your gently snoring,<br />Which others think may be boring,<br />But when i see your cute little cheeks, your dimples steeked<br />Into the corners of your mouth,<br />As you smile, which brightens my day from square one,<br />A beacon of hope, an omen of good faith,<br />A refusal to mope, as I start my day.<br /><br />But just watching you sleep, i could do for ever,<br />Staying up late, while your passed away,<br />Unaware of my lingering eyes,<br />That pass your body like elevators to the skies.<br /><br />A haunting chill passes down my spine,<br />As i come to realize,<br />That this is untrue,<br />For i never get to see you,<br />I dont know what its like to see your rosy cheeks,<br />Gently expanded by the the air, you exhale, you speak,<br />A disgruntled groan, I can only imagine,<br />That is, untill you take that one step with me, into the eden.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-59404808412658510652008-12-22T13:06:00.001-08:002008-12-23T18:05:09.443-08:00Incase I fallSo i just wrote this one, and like the previous one, there are parts i dont like, but i feel it comes together in the end.<br /><div style="text-align: center;">In case I Fall<br />-------------<br />I start to breath heavy,<br />I start to stumble,<br />I start to wobble,<br />I start to fall, While you just watch me,<br />You dont care, you come help me up,<br />But its out of courtesy, and sincerity,<br />But i just wish that your beautiful eyes,<br />Would start to look at me,<br />Your lungs would start to get heavy,<br />Your heart beat pulsing, through your chest,<br />Your blood flowing, with no rest,<br />Id help you up, not out of courtesy,<br />But out of love, out of compassion,<br />Out of caring for you,<br />Because i do,<br />Everything i do, is for you,<br />Its not clear, but i go out of my way to make your life easier,<br />I put up with others,<br />Its not easy, but its something i feel i must do,<br />You dont care, you dont even notice,<br />But still i go on, Like the rivers flow, never ending,<br />Always defending,<br />Always being there to help you when your down,<br />Always being there to turn your life around,<br />Always being there, so in case i do fall,<br />Your there, to help me up.<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-20926879368280237772008-12-21T18:13:00.000-08:002008-12-21T18:20:56.238-08:00Look at meSo I just wrote this poem and i have mix feelings about it, i like the idea but i want to change things about it just dont know what.<br /><div style="text-align: center;">Look At Me<br />--------------<br />Time goes on,<br />While we wait and watch,<br />Everyone does it,<br />But I guess i do it more,<br />Because every moment of my life,<br />Every second i breath,<br />Im looking for you,<br />Hoping to see you again,<br />You dont have to say a word,<br />All i need to know is that your presence is there,<br />Then ill try my best,<br />To make you notice me, To make you finally see it,<br />That i love you, That i want you.<br /><br />But i guess this is just puppy love,<br />Because while i notice you,<br />You dont see me,<br />I wait for that one moment when our eyes meet,<br />Because then I know that in that one moment,<br />I crossed your mind,<br />I was there, and you finally saw me,<br />But you just keep looking on, while i dont,<br />I keep looking at you, for that moment again.<br /><br />But it doesnt happen, you go over to the other side,<br />Avoiding me, but i cant avoid you,<br />Its this power you have over me,<br />I dont want to, but you make me,<br />You make me walk over and look for something,<br />Something that i dont even need, dont even want,<br />Just so you notice me, Once and for all,<br />Please just notice me, Im standing here,<br />Why cant you see me the way i see you?<br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3729601585874940881.post-31435444969983638942008-12-21T12:23:00.000-08:002008-12-21T18:20:40.931-08:00Your my shining lightOk so i cant really make titles for anything really, like every poem i have is untitled. But anyways, here it is:<br />EDIT: I THOUGHT OF A TITLE OMG!!!!!!!<br /><br /><div style="text-align: center;">Your My Shining Light<br />---------------<br />There comes a time,<br />When the lonely bystanders,<br />Come walking by and stop,<br />And stare and take a breath,<br />To watch the moment unfold,<br />The dawning of a new day,<br />Breaks to new hope,<br />To new life,<br />To shine across the stars that are now hidin,<br />By the gently glow of the sun,<br />That seems to hold<br />Onto those, Memorized,<br />Blinded by, The whos in line,<br />Who are boreded by their dreary lives,<br />Who watch after their all nighters,<br />The new day, becoming brighter.<br />They're active now, running towards the light,<br />Running to escape,<br />To be free,<br />Your hand in mine, we'll run together,<br />To be free of this world,<br />To escape our dreary lives,<br />To be together now, Hold on tight,<br />For the time is now, we're running fast,<br />The momentums building, the dream is growing,<br />The sun is our guiding light, directing us,<br />Showing us, where to go, who to be, what to do,<br />With you by my side, i know im where i want to be,<br />Being who i am,<br />Doing what i want to do, which is to be with you.<br /><br /><br />~Daniel Chapman<br /></div>ShadowDXDraghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13758575098211528740noreply@blogger.com0